the pump don't work

circusof_dreams @ 2006-01-21T21:05:00

2006-01-22T02:06:25Z

newnewnew livejournal

rural_intrigue

this one is too outdated.

be nice & add it.

at martina's

2006-01-07T17:49:40Z

i'm officially done & deleting this.

byyye.

circusof_dreams @ 2006-01-01T22:27:00

2006-01-02T03:28:45Z

keegan leaves tomorrow morning & i get to work all day.
hiphipfuckinghooray.
this vacation basically sucked. basically.

p.s. your head is philling up and down.
crazy shit.
daz money.

circusof_dreams @ 2006-01-01T14:10:00

2006-01-01T19:12:16Z

thank the lord, max lorber is still alive after last night!

xiamANTM (2:08:14 PM): so what exactly were you on last night
Deathtoxic55 (2:08:25 PM): hmmm.....
Deathtoxic55 (2:08:58 PM): 2 ex mad coke like 18 beers mad weed

i adore this boy. ADORE.

naked arms, her secrets still like songs i've never learned

2005-12-31T16:49:16Z

seeing megadeath, pooslie, ivan, kyle & monica allatonce makes me realize how much i miss tf2k5.

on another note, shit i STILL have to do before vacation ends:

-read the feast of the goat
-read a bend in the river
-catch up in great expectations
~~-finish my bard application essay~~
-write my social & political issues in lit. essay

uuuuuuuuummmmmm......SHIT.

i also need to go to h&m & blow the money that's burning a hole in my pocket.
anyone? i.e. kaitie?

NEW SCREENAME

2005-12-26T17:53:28Z

i'm going from estxLethargy

to...........xiamANTM!!!

so adddddddddd itttttttttt.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-12-22T22:30:00

2005-12-23T03:32:22Z

tooooooooday is a gooooooood day
also the second official day of winter.

here's to the brauds on sex & the city & the mindgames girls play & good friends & future bonding with kids i don't know.
amen!

what the hell am i going to do for new years? i'm in search of a solution.

wait im on overload

2005-12-21T01:03:17Z

there's so much shit i have to do before vacation ends & soo little time:
~~-see kaitie~~
-see martina/rachel/sofia/mathieu/skylar/juliet/jordan/vladimir...yea this'll happen in one trip, i hope.
-see jane/rachel/dana/monica
-see ruth [& sam/maddie, that'd be nice]
-see sam
-see the yhs kids, if possible. or just the prized few i really like seeing..
-see ~~narnia/harry potter 4/~~brokeback mtn./seriana/walking the line/king kong
-see sex & the city seasons 1-3 & 5, finding neverland, the last wallace & gromit movie
~~-write my bard application essay!~~
-finish kaitie's very belated present
~~-see kaitie/martina~~
-read a bend in the river, the silmarillion, great expectations & the feast of the goat
-write my final social & political issues in lit. paper
~~-see max - this must happen, NO more putting it off~~
-see ben
-see ivan/megadeath/graham!! this also must happen.
-see andrew

uuuuuuuuuuumm that might be it. if any of you feel the need to do any of this with me, please feel free to offer yourself up to accompany me in this.

daaaaaan's over, life is pretty sweet.

tomorrow = a matinee showing of narnia & jane's hottub with rachel/monica/dana/jane..parrrty.

shit wait, this won't be a very restful vacation.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-12-16T19:20:00

2005-12-17T00:09:49Z

i am officially on winter break.

keegan freede kuvach is HOME!

today after school, i spontaneously painted an enormous mural with dani, carola, peter, nate, matthew, nina, ben fuchs, diana, danielle, joe kleinman, JOHNNY R! and dana.....it made me realize how much i underestimate these fieldstoners.
really, i do love them so much..wow. i honestly never thought i would say that.

i already miss mr. aune. he > life. i'm not even exaggerating here, i am in love with him. actually.
he's writing my recommendation for the 3 week writing program this summer at BARD that i'm applying for. i'm just overwhelmed by him & his excellence.

tomorrow i buy shoes.
& go down to riverdale to COLLABORATE pre-jane on sunday!
i don't think i've ever been more excited to hang out with those 4 ladies.
i am so fucking exciteddd.
oh, & the hott tub always helps.

alright. life is good.
although i have post-nasal drip [like dozek] & my throat is consequently sore.

jesus christ maybe i'm getting sucked back into this livejournal scene.
ugghh.........

circusof_dreams @ 2005-12-14T15:17:00

2005-12-14T20:28:17Z

my glands are swollen.

i've been listening to the decemberists 24/7.

i'm absolutely in love with mr. aune.

i'm losing my appetite.

i have 2 more days. unless there's a transit strike.....!!!

this livejournal thing is growing on me.

i have bear paws.

i'm submitting to litmag. oyvey. i'll post what i'm submitting here, it's a short poem.

i'm tired as hell but life is fucking good right now.

i want to see: kaitie, martina, kelly, skylar, matthieu, jordyn, kryn, jon, monica, nora, sam, ben, andrew, dani, KEEGAN!, sex & the city seasons 1-3 & 5, ruth, naomi, jane, 3 tipsy girls in jane's hottub and marion.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-12-10T11:28:00

2005-12-10T16:16:24Z

i like having lots of little groups of friends, yknow?
it's like merrilee & martina & the MSM/PCS kids are my hott sauce
and camp kids & kaitie are my...salt? yea i think so. cause you always have to have salt, and i really like salt.
and the YHS kids are my...ketchup.f or when i feel like making chicken [ie life?] more interesting.
and the fieldston kids are......uum. well yea. we'll leave it at that.
and then there are the miscellaneous like ruth and ben and sam, etc. who are my pepper. yknow how every once and a while you need some pepper? well yea, you see where i'm going with this.

life is pretty sweeeeeeet.
i might not be bored this christmas break. we'll see.

today's very sufjan stevens-y.

today is also very cold & very bear oven mit weather & means seeing martina & merrilee & monica & nora.......!!!!!!

circusof_dreams @ 2005-12-08T19:51:00

2005-12-09T00:37:19Z

today marks the 25th year deathaversary of John Lennon.

rest in peace.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-12-01T23:16:00

2005-12-02T04:02:50Z

i have lots to say but don't like this place.
i might be done forever, so i'll leave you all with this:

READ WILLIAM BLAKE.
he's absolutely incredible.

things are changing pretty fast.
there are lots of kids i need to see.

everything is [semi] settled with graham & i like it & i miss him just as much but my mind's at some kind of ease right now.

bed. goodbye [for good?].

circusof_dreams @ 2005-11-23T22:31:00

2005-11-24T03:19:24Z

max, riverfox, kryn, monica, nora, camilla, alina & ltp = big fun

i am so fucking tired
& so depressed at the moment
but also so fucking excited for friiiiiidayyy

smells like teen spirit

2005-11-13T15:05:57Z

there's something beautiful & angsty & very very cold about wandering around for hours and hours both up and downtown to see:
skylar, matthieu, vladimir, jon, jordan, lauren, manny, eric, chris, anthony & the comedy club guy
& spending too much time making too many friends in greasy kfc & loitering outside afterwards for an hour in the freezing cold with no jacket & watching skylar help matthieu take a piss in the park deviding the north & southbound lanes on broadway in front of all of new york..
& coming back with martina to laugh & eat & laugh & eat & eat some more & get really tired & go to sleep without taking off your bra.
i love nights like that.
even if i wake up at 8:30 the next morning, totally unnecessarily.

next weekend = megadeath, ivan, nora & maxxx
thanksgiving weekend = camp reunionnnn OHH SHIT!

oh & also, bubble tea is nasty as hell/as amazing as it gets.

i want to see rachel, wtf why is she always busy when im in the city. arrghlksjdfioansdlkfj

circusof_dreams @ 2005-11-11T21:05:00

2005-11-12T01:51:54Z

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

...i think so.

reunion is so close & i just cannot comprehend it.

this scene is old.

cloudy.

2005-11-06T14:44:34Z

today is foggy, my house is emersed in one huge cloud.
i'm talking with nora about this summer. what am i going to do? this is the first summer in forever that i've had to make plans for.
i want to watch the dvd but i know i can't.
i want to see max, i miss him.
monica & nora are going to italy this summer. what am i going to do without them? i'd like to go with them but chances are i won't have the money.
so i'll stay here this summer, somewhere closer to home & closer to where i really want to be & it'll be somewhere more depressing, more standard.
i need a radical change. looks like it's not going to come.
what will i do when i really have to let go of my farmers? i'll freak out.
i already am freaking out.
i have 2 papers to write. i don't have the time for this shit.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-10-26T17:55:00

2005-10-27T00:56:16Z

AS OF YESTERDAY, R.I.P. 2,000 AMERICAN SOLDIERS DEAD IN IRAQ.

i ran into kaitie & her sack-o'-10 grandma in mt. kisko.
it was rad.

antmmmmmmm

circusof_dreams @ 2005-10-24T16:10:00

2005-10-24T20:17:42Z

someone stole my bag today. what. the. fuck. why would someone do that?

.....& on the day i get my period? with like a bajillion tests within the next 2 days? slakdfjiaodghasdlfj ugh.

1 month & 2 days until i see the kids that make my world go round.
30 days until i see my kryn-love alskdfjioasndglasdkfj

i. love. william. blake.
& mr. aune.

the art of seduction: because you're not good enough!

2005-10-22T23:13:19Z

kaitie & i went out today.
i got the complete poems of william blake, a coffee with a shot of hazelnut & a brownie, a disney princess' watch [with two free heart hairclips] & some "do-jiggies"...god i'm a happy camper.
i'm happy im not in the cold city going to a homecoming pre-party, to be quite honest. this was a lovely change of plans.
& i. love. kaitlyn. bozek. end of story.
tonight i'll do my work, and visit with mr. pratchett & mr. blake & mr. potter & AoS [kaitie is also now a proud owner]....& some crappy television.
relaxed saturday nights are the best these days.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-10-21T17:56:00

2005-10-22T00:59:05Z

jane + dana + hottub + cosmopolitans = one helluva time. asoidfhnasdlkfjvzopidfuwdnf there's so much i want to do this weekend. tomorrow i think is simon & max // crashing colleen's pre-hc05 party with max... my ratings will SKYROCKET when i walk through the door with: that kid on the left & in the middle there. or......who would be on the left&middle IF I COULD SEE THE PICTURES opsidfjoaskdj i don't know why that's happening. if you're really curious though you could right click. anyways. MAX LORBER & I WILL SHAKE UP HC05 LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROWWW!!! i'm excited. YOU CAN SEE THE PICTURES IN AVA'S COMMENT, IF YOU WANNA. thaaaankyou ava darling. kaitie i think i can see you sunday. asoidfugaiousdn ill calll youuu also, i love william blake. maybe it's just because of hte dangerous lives of altar boys, but yea. he's rad.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-10-20T17:29:00

2005-10-20T21:37:24Z

i just read someone else's entry saying how they had the best friends in the world & i found myself sortof internally laughing, thinking i had the best friends in the whole world...and then i thought about how this person has no idea that i feel that way because i don't think i ever really say that about my friends...& then i realized that if i had the friends that she has & was as close to them as she is, i just wouldn't be happy.

isn't it funny that somehow we always manage to make it work & find a way to find the people who are a perfect fit for us...so perfect that we come to love them more than the whole world?
yea. what a stroke of luck. i'd say that's something we all have to be thankful for.

dani made me a return-mix. happy gurl i am.

i wore a nightgown today, all day. and damn it felt good.

also, joe called me last night when i was in the shower. and actually i was thinking about him just as my mom knocked on the door to ask when he should call back. there's amazingly good news about him, and his probably future-meeting with the east coast.
holy shit. i am so excited.
maybe i'll finally be able to get what i want. how selfish. but i am just a teenage girl, after all. getting what i want & joe are two concepts that pretty much go hand in hand with me.

life is good now.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-10-19T15:37:00

2005-10-19T19:46:27Z

jane came to school yesterday, it was glorious.

i made a mix for daniella cardia, it was glorious.

homecoming is this saturday, it will be glorious. though i'm not going. but i'll weasle my way onto one of the lists for the pre-party that someone's doorman will have. it will be glorious.

i might see simon this weekend (if he gets his act together), that is trully glorious.

i'm so excited to do this TROJAN concert shit - free condoms, free concerts. what could be more glorious?
i talked to dani & streeter (who would've thought i'd EVER talk to HIM? craziness occurs.) about it, & they were impressed with the obvious rad-ity of the situation, we all agreed: it was glorious.
i didn't think of invited dani to do the TROJAN concert shit with me & nora, but i should. the 3 of us would make a team nothing short of GLORIOUS.

i had my first montera class today. wow.

i've been thinking about joe alot. uum i don't really know what to say about that, but yea. i dunno. confusing.

KAITIE you're fantastic. yknow. just thought i'd tell ya.

ANTM is on tonight --- asodihalsdnvxuiodfwoejgfsdflk!!!!!

life is alright.

this song reminds me of riverfox.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-10-16T20:24:00

2005-10-17T00:12:48Z

i saw finn [briefly] as he watched me eat a burrito on saturday.

the rest of the time was spent with my dear brother & his girlfriend & his ex & his notorious crew.
it was fantastic.
made fantastic-er by the pink chamagne & raspberry vodka & keegan's hookah. we christened it.
those kids are delicious.

& now, im back.
simon comes into the city this weekend!
& bozek must be seen avec moi.

circusof_dreams @ 2005-10-14T14:59:00

2005-10-14T19:06:56Z

off to amherst tonight to see keegs & finn
& meet keeg's guuuurlfriend!! oh boy im exciteddd to party hard with those college kids.
potentially my first college party. MAN it should be OFF. THE. HOOKKK.
& also i see my beloved finn...JESUS CHRIST, AMHERST IS BASICALLY MY LIFFE.

it's raining. on the bright side, the past week has been full of sweaters.

life is good, sometimes.

also, tim o'brien is my god.v